3 weeks down!

So this week was an awesome week! I worked really hard and it payed off! I lost 2 pounds! I only have 2 pounds of baby weight left! Unfortunately, I really wanted to have all of it off by my birthday but it looks like ill be just shy of that goal.

This week I did 2 miles. then weights then ran half a mile as fast as I could for a cool down. I ran on Mon. Wed. Thurs. and Friday. In addition to the running and weights on Thursday I also did a Zumba class! Those classes kick my butt! All in all it was a good week! As far as eating I did really well until sat. which was a really bad day. and I had fast food twice! still better than I do normally!

Next week is 2 and a half miles. I'm trying to decide if I want to go 5 days a week or if I should just do the 4 days but 5 times or if I want to do 5 days with only 1 work out each day with no zumba?! I don't know running on Friday is so much harder than the other days because my body is torn up from that class so I think my run would benefit but I guess I can try it this week and see if I like it?!

Also on an unrelated note. I have a possibility of 2 formal parties/ balls in a literal sense of the word and I have to make sure I can find a dress that I look FANTASTIC in and that I can wear with my body being so awkward. no pressure but plenty of motivation to keep going and to work that much harder every week!

My 19 week journey.

I have the opertunity to transform my body once again. I have 19 weeks.

The last time Josh left I lost 75 pounds! I was so excited and I had never felt better in my life! I started at 225 pounds and ended at 150. When I lost the weight it opened up an whole new world for me, I was able to do things I never thought I would be able to do. I ran 3 5k races and set my life long goal of one day running the Boston Marathon. So since I'm me I am never happy with the way I look, I have always had self esteem issues and I thought losing the weight before would help but it did for about 2 weeks! So now Im attempting to lose 20 pounds in almost 20 weeks and Im really hoping that I can not only lose the needed weight to be in the normal BMI range but also to get my self image under control. So I have gone through and did a week by week workout scheduel and now I get to do it and see what happens! The kicker here is that I'm still nursing my 5 month old so I cant really diet hard core I can only eat healthier food and make the gym do the rest!

So my plan is or has been to steadily increase my distance week by week. I have a 5k on St pattys day and Im working towards that one. Then I have a 4 mile run over the Coronado bridge in 11 weeks. Then teh next great thing is Josh coming home and doing the homecoming ball and maybe the Navy ball! Which I must look amazing for! So I have Things to work towards along the way to keep me motivated!

I go to the gym 4 days a week and on Thursdays I go twice! I run and lift weights most days but on Thursdays I also do Zumba for the extra calorie burn! I also have been cutting WAY down on my fast food intake I have only been out to eat 3 times in 2 weeks which is amazing for me since we used to go out 5 plus times a week! Im also trying to cook better food! But ya. So I figure Ill up date how im doing every week so I feel like I have someone I have to report to every week.

So this last 2 weeks I only lost 1 pound but its better than nothing! I feel like I live at that gym and I havent missed a day which is a great thing I suppose!

I did a lot of weight lifting that I normaly dont do and it was intense. I have also realized that I have no upper body strength left after this last kid! So im really working hard on my arms I went and bought some 8 pound weights. And I do sit ups at night and do the weights. So since Im a pound behind this next week I'm really hoping that I can make up for it. Though Ill admit that I am afraid to be too sore because I still have to be able to move enough to take care of my kids! So until next week......

Picture is my very first before picture. By my birthday next year if not sooner I want to be able to say that I lost 100 pounds!

Oh and Jess if your reading this Im going to need you to help me find a dress!

I love my husband!

I know it sounds cheesy but its true! I have the best husband ever!

No Josh didnt tell me to write this I am doing it because I have been reminded over and over again that I am truly blessed to have the most perfect husband for me!

I often find myself in awe and not the good kind when I see or hear about how different couples interact! I am a independent person. I am stubborn and dont baby people ( as much as I should). And since Im so "weird" I expect certain things from Josh that evidently other husbands just dont do, refuse to do or are not expected by their wives to do?! I dont wake up with him to make breakfast for him, hes a big boy! I dont dish up his plate, unless hes busy and then I do it but if he ever expected me to do it id drop something hot in his lap. He packs his own bags, hes not allowed to spend money with out telling me about it, and if I dont want to have sex he doesnt get any!

I know I know im a horrible person! But that works for our relationship!

Josh gets me! He understands that I am suborn, impatient, self conscious, and grumpy! He has no problem letting me control everything, he lets me be right, he absolutely adores everything about me( which is so weird) and he tells me that all the time. He is so patient. He is a FANTASTIC Dad. He helps me with the kids, sometimes more than I do, even after along day at work because he wants to help me. He has this amazing way of making me feel completely safe and secure when ever hes around. He can calm me down no matter how upset I am. He has the most calming voice and warm hands ( dont know why thats calming but it is) and he is a really good person. I dont know of many who dont like him because he tries so hard to get everyone to like him and to make sure he doesnt offend anyone!

I love Josh and I miss him so much. Home just isnt the same with out the whole family in the same state!